today was not a great day. i spent a vast majority of it in a foul mood, with a headache, stressed about the future, confronted with self doubt and wallowing in self pity for no particular reason except that i didn't have much going on to distract me. why is it that we always focus on the negative when we know we should be focusing on the positive? why is it so hard for me to trust that god has things under control? i hate it when things seem so logical, yet actually believing them is so difficult. thankfully, god isn't giving up on me and tomorrow is another day to keep trying.